Monday, November 9, 2009

Confession

I have to admit, I really DON'T want to do chemo again.

(UPDATE: This is preventative chemo - I have to do it once a week for four weeks every six months for two years after my original chemo. June/December 2009 & June/December 2010)

There is something to be said for being blissfully ignorant, and I am not (ignorant) anymore about what is coming.

I am feeling really good. It is going to be the Christmas holidays and school holidays. I have a lot I would like to do and enjoy.

And what do I get to do? Go get pumped full of medicine that is going to make me feel sick and tired.

I actually had a king-sized meltdown in front of my husband. Like a two-year-old, I told him I hadn't made my appointments yet "because I don't want to . . ."

Thankfully, for both of us, the last time I had a meltdown was over a year ago and related to the cancer, as well.

So, I'm steeling myself to make the call (still haven't) and considering booking a padded room as well.

4 comments:

Darla said...

WHAT?! Is the cancer back? Or is this precautionary? I hope it isn't back!!

Anonymous said...

I cried when I saw this picture, Molly. I love it. I wish I could see you right now. Love Robbie

Robbie down under said...

And it's about time you posted something!!! Love Robbie

It looks like I have finally figured out how to comment.

Heather @ boy, girl, and a pug said...

Confused! Why chemo again?